I have been absent from the board for awhile now and from what Benblesed has told me what went on i'm glad I was away and missed all those triggering posts.

I've been dealing with a bit of stress lately, mostly because my anxiety is up and I have to at least send out 2 resumes this week for jobs, and I don't want too. But I know I can't avoid it and I need to do it to build of my confidence because right now I have none when it comes to jobs.

My SAD is going to start kicking in, maybe it has now but I think the vitamins...

So I gotta start my lightbox (light therapy) this week and sit under it for 5 minutes each day to start, because I was ultra sensitive to it last year.

I've had some triggers a couple weeks ago , some depression as well, but things are looking up. I haven't gone downhill in terms of my SAD which is surprising because this is the time where it hits me the worse.

I think for me the biggest thing is to deal with getting my confidence up, getting that up will conquer my anxiety as well.

I had a massive panic attack not too long ago with contacting someone about a job. Was panicky for 3 hours crying, wringing my hands, freaking out. But I did call that day and left her a message, but she didn't call me back and I didn't do another follow up i guess it's because I wasn't that sure about it.

It's going to be a rough couple of weeks I think.
Also I've been still dealing with food anxiety regarding meat ect.

That is getting better... also I got to drink more fluids. Have to drink something ever 2 hrs, but i'm forgetting that already.