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Old Mar 04, 2015, 08:45 AM
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I am sorry the wind is triggering you, people who don't understand PTSD don't realize how any reminder can turn into such a challenge that is not just a conscious decision to remember and then struggle with feeling like one is running a marathon. I struggle with that a lot myself so I understand exactly what you are discribing. I experience that pretty much every day when I go out to take care of my ponies and horses, I get so I am in so much pain that I take a lot of breaks, come into the house and sit at the computer and come to PC and read until I calm down so I can go back out and do more.
I have not taught lessons in years because whenever I go into the riding ring, without even thinking about it my body begins to pump cortisol and then I am in a lot of pain.
Honestly, I don't know "how" to fix that challenge, it's not like I decide to have that take place, it just comes over me.

For myself, the only way I can sleep is to have the TV on so I am not listening for noises outside unknowingly as that is what I had done for several months while I basically had to address so many injured ponies/horses and needed to listen at night in case any of them struggled and needed me. That is what I had to do when my neighbor's dog caused so much damage to pretty much every horse/pony I owned.

The TV drowns out the silence where I was listening and barely sleeping for so many months. It has helped me be able to sleep. I don't know if that would drown out the wind so you did not hear it as that is a hard noise to cover up if the wind is really strong.

((Understanding Hugs)))
OE
Thanks for this!
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