I'm not interested in communicating. I like my own space, my own peace and quiet.
I go to my cardio session and im asked if I'm a personal trainer.. I have resorted to ear phones to ignore and blocks people out.

At work if i'm in one of the sign written vehicles, to stop for lunch or if im busy near my car that seems to give passer by's a reason to strike up a conversation with me... usually i'm stressed off my head trying to keep it together yet, these random people want to talk to me when all i want to do is control my avoidance and focus on my job, to get in and out as quickly as possible.

Today some old guy stopped to tell me a joke... yes, i know he was being very nice, but i not in the mood to laugh... so i guess i'm a bad guy for not laughing.

In the office i have phone calls to try and make and receive.. and any avie know how difficult phones are.

I cant even handle listening to the radio.

I hide all this from work staff and from clients or i will bring more attention to myself. Those outside of this would most definitely think I'm rude or arrogant, but they have no idea how hard this all is...yet im judged on other peoples ease with communicating and socializing.

Sorry for venting.