i honestly wish i didnt have to take any.
but i do.
i do have to take them.
my life...i just...everything sucks.

i dont know if ill ever be happy.
it really hurts to have no one to talk to in real life except family.
it sucks not to have good therapy.

it really sucks to feel like no one really cares.
i mean my my dad and sis and mom does for the most part.
but no one else does. like maybe some of you all do.
but absolutely no one else in the world cares.

it just really hurts to be alone
i dont understand what makes me so different that no one in real life likes me or gives me a chance or talks to me. this whole past half year that ive been reltively ok no one in real life has givven an F about me. and now im pretty much in psychosis already and for sure no one is gonna care. i may not have had a complete break yet again but im not ok anymore. i dont really know why tho.

idk anything right now. i just feel really really really confused.