This is the second forum where people say I am trying to make of him a pet project. I want you all to understand that I do love him deeply, even though he has hurt me so deeply too. Can you imagine how humiliating it was to meet him in person and see him rejecting me?
I am putting my own feelings behind, and just being as understanding as I can. I know he has a very limiting mental disease, and despite that I still love him. I enjoy his companionship, he is a great guy. He just freaks out because of his fear of being touched. He has confessed it to me. It seems to be something beyond his control.
I feel it is so unfair that a beautiful person like him cannot enjoy the pleasures of loving and being loved.
I am sincerely trying to help him. My question here is "what can I do in order for my love not to scare the hell out him?"
Our breaking up was very traumatic for the both of us, but it didn't take from me the desire of being in a relationship, with him or somebody else. For him, on the other hand, it only assured him that he is unable to love and be loved. I wish I had contributed with his process of opening up.
I wish someone could understand my point. There must be a way of reaching someone who suffers from this condition. I just want to know if there is, and what it is.