Raging Quiet, I've followed your posts for quite a while about your retired T still seeing you and your not knowing exactly if that was okay and now about how difficult it is for you to get out.

I have no way of knowing your T's intentions. From what you've said in the past, it sounded as if she was making a special effort to support you through your pregnancy, almost more as a friend or elder supporter than a more formal T type arrangement, considering that she'd retired. Have you asked her directly if she has any plans or ability to see you in the future after your baby is born and you've settled into the hectic routine of new motherhood?

You may need or want some extra support in a few months time as you adjust to your knew life as a mother. Have you thought about taking a break during these last months of your pregnancy and first months of motherhood rather than doing a full termination? It seems like that might be something worth talking about.

I wish you and your baby the best, with good health and happiness.