Well I don't know I guess to me it's showing vulnerability, which is a human thing...but its still hard for me to cry in front of people even if they probably won't judge too much. Unfortunately as a kid I got bullied a lot and sort of got to the point in my mind its like showing a vulnerability just leaves me open to some kind of insult or mockery....so its ingrained 'getting upset=people using it against me, so best not to show it.' Even though I know its not really true nessisarily, but yeah I even will get away from family and such even if they wouldn't judge if I feel the need to cry...but much of the time its hard to even do that anymore too used to trying to hold it all back.