does going out into public help? like maybe window shopping or just going for a walk?
I'm sorry php seemed to make everything worse. I know it was difficult for me to find a php program that I felt could help. I tried a few, and finally ended up with one that helped rather than hurt. Would finding a different program be in the cards?

would doing somehting simple but repetitive help? I sometimes go on "paper crane benders" where I just mindlessly fold papeer cranes till my hands hurt. It helps me keep busy and I don't have to think too hard about it because after a while it becomes muscle-memory...

also, does having the tv or a movie on in th ebg help at all? when I can't concentrate on anything, I pick something I've seen before so I can zone out, but still know what's going on when my attention wanders back to it... the bg noise helps me feel less alone. The other day I watched Despicable Me for the millionth time. I tuned most of it out, except the parts with the minions (coz they make me laugh).