Seesaw. You are not alone in how you feel. You did the kindest, but hardest thing ever, out of love & respect for your baby boy Blue. I lost my baby girl on New Years eve and I know exactly how much you are hurting. Every minute of every day. Your feeling of tightness and pain - I also feel that. It hurts like nothing else we have felt. My heart goes out to you, but you did a truly special thing. Take comfort for yourself, if you possibly can, in your decision. Take care of you. You did a very courageous and unselfish thing for Blue, because you love him. Xxx