This post was so good to read! I am happy for you. I am in the throes of this right now and it is terrifying. I wish he would just come out and say he loves me. He beats around the bush every time I start walking this tightrope and than I retreat. That's it! I am putting it on the table tomorrow once and for all!

This past week I texted "love, rainbow " to a friend who experienced a tragedy in her family. She texted back "I love you" which made me feel good as she and I never used that word before. I also reached out to other friends who need me.

T gave me homework to hold my husband's hand, which was a great idea, and helped us reconnect. A few of my friends are seriously ill now. Life is so short!

I emailed my T and wrote "I love you." She emailed back "sending love", T. I should have just written "Love, rainbow." "I love you" was a bit much but if my friend could write it to me, I can write it too. I think love is love. Not the romantic kind but the kind that says "I care about you very much." Expressing it seems appropriate. I NEVER told people I loved them in my past. Even when I did love them. My T, by expressing love to me, is helping me reach out to others in my life! I feel really good about doing this. It's real growth! I do wish T and I could sign our emails Love, T and Love, Rainbow without her using the word " sending " first. I think that's her boundary. Does it seem like that's what it is? It doesn't matter really. I'm changing and wanted to share my positive news.