The way I look at the love I have is this - my therapy has somehow shown me that I have this capacity for deep love for others, it's let that emotion emerge. Even though it felt like it was directed at my T, that love was within me and I can share it with whoever I like, family, friends, strangers on the tube, the old man who lives next door. The love is really not about my T. Would it help to view your love for your T as something that can be redirected? It is a positive thing that you gave that capacity for love.