Hi, my name is Ang and I'm new here. I suffer from Bi-Polar disorder and to make a really, really long story short, I had my daughter taken away from me by a family member after a suicide attempt. She was adopted 2 1/2 months ago after a 4 year custody battle and they have since moved to the other side of the country. I'm missing her so much, my heart's breaking. She's 12 now. I don't know what my SIL has told her about me. I don't know if she misses me or even knows that I didn't willingly let her go. I fought with everything I had and nothing worked. Now my best friend has had a baby and I'm supposed to go see her this afternoon. Am I being selfish because I really just want to go home? I love my friend and I'm gonna love this baby like she's my own. I just don't know if I can handle it. I really need some support. For what, I'm not sure... my husband and I seem to grieve separately and I don't have anyone that really understands.

Ang