I am still effected from the abuse from my childhood, certain situations trigger memories. I have avoided dental exams all my life (until recently for an emergency and i had to be sedated under general anesthesia) and no way I can even attempt to have a pelvic exam. I even avoid routine check-ups/exams and only go when I am extremely sick because I feel like I am out of control on the exam table being touched I am not afraid the doctor will do anything wrong or abuse me, I am afraid of the memories it provokes.