Happy Wednesday Katicky,

I can relate-I tend to feel responsible for stressful events-I wish real life was like the Peanuts strip where Lucy went around with a piece of paper and asked everyone to sign it, saying: "Sign this please; it absolves me from all blame." Near the end, Charlie Brown asked what it was and she said: "Whatever bad stuff goes on in the world, I'm not responsible for it!" Charlie responded: "That must be a nice document to have!" I'd have it laminated and carry it with me all the time.

On the other side, there's the times she always pulls out the football before he can kick it. One time, near the end of the strip, he's lying on the ground, looking at the sky, saying: "How long, O Lord?" and Lucy responds with "All your life, Charlie Brown. All your life."

I've had OCD all my life and it's worse with stress. Right now I'm facing the first anniversary (7/1) of my (again) boyfriend-he died unexpectedly at 49.

more later,

OCDC