I pay a fortune for "gentle dentistry" and only found him a couple years ago. Needless to say I had quite a lot of damage from neglect. I would shake, cry, and hyperventilate in the parking lot and could not go inside. This stems from trauma at age 3, my earliest memories and deeply ingrained.

Also anywhere in public I can't remain seated if someone is standing near my chair. Immediately I begin to panic, I have to stand up or politely insist they be seated as well. Kind of embarrassing at work where people stand by your chair a million times a day, and waitstaff in restaurants also. This stems from abuse as an adult, yet no less deeply ingrained.

Hugs! I hope you are able to get the care you need.