Tranquility, I so like your description of recovery. Yes I too see that I sit in my own self pity, see how I,ve run away from my problems either through hospital or other means.

Only today I was sitting rather low and realised that its only me that can pick myself up to do something, but I also see how though I can see that now, I still don't have the inner strenght to pick myself up completely.

I know that its only through therapy that I've got this far, and often feel guilty for keep going over and over the same old story in T.

When I saw today that its me that needed to get up and do something other then just sit in down in the dumps, I was almost shocked. It was a new awareness.

As you say, I dont think we ever have it all taken away from us, our pasts that is, but we learn to help oureslfs better. We gain a new compartment in our minds that was never there before. Like growing new arms.

((sister))