I'm 19 and in the past 2 years I've lost 2 family members. However, the last one was a few months ago and I'm still not over it. I don't know what to do. This relative was the only person I felt comfortable with and was able to talk about anything knowing that she truly cared. She was old but it still feels like it's all a dream and that when I go to her house she's going to be there to ask me how school is and how I'm doing in general. I see a therapist and actually I had an appointment a day after her passing. We have been talking about her more in sessions but I'm afraid to tell my therapist how much I miss her because I'm afraid to cry. I recently did exams and told myself it was all for her and got great marks and I just started crying.

Now I'm on break so I'm off school for another week and I'm trying to just calm down and relax but I dont know what else to do anymore.

Any advice ?? Thank you for reading