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The deeper I go the louder fear seems to get.
Where a child never should have been.
I never should have had to be.
And I am scared.
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That makes sense to me dps. You are right, a child never should have had to deal with that kind of fear and I do understand your being scared of it right now.
While you may not have complete understanding of the fear that was pulled away from you as a child, it was done to protect you and help you to continue. At this time, as an adult, you are now being faced with that fear. It would have been traumatizing to you as a child and it still will be extremely difficult to deal with as an adult, but you have more support and more ability to deal with it now than you did as a child. I have faith that you will be able to work through this fear and to learn that part of you protected the child but the adult now needs to know about it in order to continue on your journey.
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Alone. I'm not stupid or dumb. Just hurt like many others. But I am not stupid or dumb. Like said, just hurt like many others. Wish I was never born. Then I wouldn't have to hurt or feel alone.
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No, you are not stupid or dumb by any stretch of the imagination. It's understandable that you hurt like many others and feel alone. I am sorry that this is how you are feeling. I believe that someday you will know what it's like not to feel hurt or to feel alone.
I care more than you know!
