Do you talk about it with your therapist?

I guess I don't feel safe telling him. I always tell him when I feel like i'm going to die, or want to die, but usually that's it.

There's been times I have been really suicidal during our therapy, and I feel so alone that I can't talk with him about it. Right now is one of those times.

One time he asked me about it further, and I said "we don't need to discuss the details". I just didn't want him to know. Part of me doesn't want him to worry; another part is that I don't want to see him not care when I tell him. Another part is too ashamed to talk about it. Yet another, is I worry he will think i'm being dramatic or faking or trying to get attention.

So I cry in silence.