Well at Christmas time, I told him it hurt that I wasn't in his Christmas and that i wanted to die.

He said it was anger at him and he got mad at me. The thing is, I get like that at Christmastime every year because I feel so incredibly alone. That I said it hurt was just added to that mindset.

Ever since then, things have not been the same. It feels like out relationship is always hanging by a thread. I already feel abandoned.