I want to get married but my boyfriend is not ready yet. I do respect that. But some of the conditions he has won't be for a very long time and it's stressing me out. And one of his conditions is not until my son moves back in with us and I have no idea when that will be IF ever, since he is so happy and stable with my mother and she's taking better care of him than I can. And it's enough stress and pressure trying to move him down without adding it as a condition of marriage.

I'm sad. I feel ready and this is the only time with anyone I've felt ready and I'm sad to learn that not only will I not be getting married any time soon but it won't be for years and years. I want to respect that he isn't ready but I don't know I'm just very sad. He's great and supportive in almost every other way and he's been understanding and working with me on my mental health and supporting me and he does make me happy. So this isn't like a deal breaker because having him in my life is a huge positive. I'm just sad about this.