I really wish someone could understand me/relate to me. I dont care about anything. I have 37000 worth of loans that I need to start paying off in a year and all I do everyday is browse the internet and stuff myself with food.

I dont want to work. I hate working. Like those retail jobs that I have to get all dressed up for and put on a fake personality. Im very introverted.

Im teaching myself programming. I can learn it definitely but dont know how to apply for a job once I learn everything.