I'm sorry you feel this way.

I told my t when I wanted to die but it seems he didn't believe I really will do it. I tried. He was mad at me and told me he will put me in hospital. He said he will not be my t anymore if I will try to kill myself.
His words made everythink just worse. I don't think that other T would act so cruel.
My T also thought I show my anger by doing this. Maybe it was anger too but at first I was desperete.
Now I think that no matter how I hate my life, there is no reason to die, there also is no reason to live but I will live because only being alive I can change something, I dont want to leave this life when Im not done everything I wanted. I suggest this to you too