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Originally Posted by lunatic soul
I'm sorry you feel this way.
I told my t when I wanted to die but it seems he didn't believe I really will do it. I tried. He was mad at me and told me he will put me in hospital. He said he will not be my t anymore if I will try to kill myself.
His words made everythink just worse. I don't think that other T would act so cruel.
My T also thought I show my anger by doing this. Maybe it was anger too but at first I was desperete.
Now I think that no matter how I hate my life, there is no reason to die, there also is no reason to live but I will live because only being alive I can change something, I dont want to leave this life when Im not done everything I wanted. I suggest this to you too  |
When I discussed my suicidal intents with T he would express how much I mean to him, how much it would effect his life, how much he felt I had to offer this world and that it is a fact that as a therapist they know that at some point in their career they will lose someone to suicide and he did not want that to be me. I felt really guilty and if guilt stopped me then so be it.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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