I too am feeling very very depressed. I wish I wasn't born. I wish I could just disappear. I feel I am too much for the world out a long those around me. I feel so alone though I am not. But I cannot seem to explain it.

It is hard to understand those that say they love you and care, when that was all you ever wanted, but when that was never part of your life and you always were on guard and afraid. How do you really trust what you have never understood, had, or known before? We all want to know.

Seems we make mistake after mistake, and it often feels easy to blame someone who always knew it was their fault anyway, how would we know any different? Maybe I am just a mistake like they always said.

I feel I am floating today, I just cannot seem to connect or feel safe. I know another anniversary is around the corner. If only others really could understand what it meant and what it was.

I feel far away. Maybe it is best that way.