I didn't used to at all. I was afraid to. Then, I started telling T about them several weeks after they happened, so that I wasn't at risk "right now" but could still process what I had experienced. This latest time, I told T as it was happening, and it changed things...I'm back to being hesitant again. I think that now, I'm going to be looking for some kind of compromise between "right now" and "in the past"...at least until I rebuild a little bit of trust that T won't change because I share these thoughts with her.

I do understand that the T has to be responsible and if they feel you're a risk to yourself, take action to mitigate that. On the other hand, I've lived with suicidal thoughts since I was in my late teens...I'm in my late 30's now. I've managed to not act on them for this long...I need my T to trust that I know myself well enough to know whether I'm going to act on the thoughts or not. I think this latest time scared my T.