Such great news to get clues to your past.

While in therapy, I got curious about the foster home that I lived in for the first several months of my life. I stayed for a short stint at a group home as an infant, and I found out from people familiar with my story that an external child services worker found me laying on the floor in filth, starving and naked.

As early as six months, I'd learned to feed myself and wouldn't let anyone else feed me. Or so I'm told.

Apparently, I was severely neglected as a baby. My therapist thinks this explains some strange reactions I was having as an adult. It's almost as if my body and psyche deeply remembers these experiences, even if I do not recall them on the surface.

I hope you're able to integrate this new understanding into your life and heal from it. It's one thing to know the cause of your angst - an important step - but quite another to recover or heal.