During the first time I was in therapy with my current T, I don't think I ever mentioned I had sui thoughts. I have wanted to talk about it many times, but I never had the courage to tell her about those thoughts.

Since about 1.5 months I've been in therapy with her again. I did mentioned it in the e-mail I send her about why I needed therapy again. And I mentioned it in the intake, which was with another T.
But we haven't really talked about it. I'm a bit afraid to start talking about it again. I have those thoughts every day. I don't have plans and I know I won't have any soon. I think. But I don't know if I will ever get that far that I will do it.

I'm not sure if talking about these sui thoughts will help? We do talk about the things that are the reason why I have those thoughts, so..