I think, I know for sure I am not DID. But I would post here cuz I do dissociate.
I read something bout ego state disorder. Kinda made sense to me.
I deny, but I DO got different me's, and sometimes its OK, and sometimes I get scared, and sometimes I am so well adjusted I am prectically perfect.
I have a CBT T. And we been floundering some.
I am WAY safer than I was.
I cope better.
Right now we just trying to work on my strong ways of being, and going to try and get my life in order.
But my QUESTION is: has anyone else had the problem of being unable to access inside info cuz there;s a part that gets extreemly angry if I do try? Its like anger and blanking and I have to leave the room cuz I feel like I gonna explode.
There's a white flash, and all goes blank. I CANNOT access that which causes me unhappiness and confusion in my life. I wonder if there even IS anything? But why the anger?
So its a block. And so I am just trying to be adult and 'normal'(?).
But I can't stop the 'haunting ' inside of me.
And there's upset.
I need ideas of what to do.
Anyhelp much appreciated.
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