Dj315, you've described me!!! Are we siblings? I have also suppressed my emotions for so long. You described it really well. My biggest clue is if I don't want to leave. Then I know I'll have a hard time. 2 sessions ago my T asked at the end how I thought my week would go. She asked if I was upset or mad. I said no just sad but I'm not sure why. Then I realized and said "oh stupid attachment". She smiled. I think I'm going to ask her to do that every session. Maybe she can help me identify feelings if I can't at the time.