Two months ago I had quite a few bad suicidal thoughts, thanks to the support here I managed to call my T and tell her. She saw me that same day, and she helped me by adjusting meds, going through my coping skills and so on. We discussed going to the hospital, but I was really scared and not at immediate risk so she let me go home. However the deal was I had to call her before harming myself in any way and she wanted to see me the following, to make sure I was ok.

Things are slowly going back to normal with sessions every 3 weeks at the moment. I feel like that's what I need as I cope well on my own for 2 weeks, and the thrid one is difficult, but not unmanageable.