I feel so stupid, vulnerable and alone when I cry. As of today, I have no desire to let myself cry in therapy. May be difficult, but I think I can handle that. It was a hard session, and as usual when I cry, I end up leaving my session in a not-so-good place. I just don't want to do that anymore.

My T used to come over and console me...that helped get me grounded, calmed down, and eventually stop. All of a sudden, she's not doing that anymore. Leaves me wondering what I said or did...but it doesn't really matter.

My God, this therapy crap is hard work.