She knows I'm holding something back from her. In some ways, I was so close to saying it, or at least starting to give some hints, today.... but without reassurance, there's no way in hell I'll tell her. Just no way. I don't want to talk about something that is SUCH a big deal to me, without some support. I know lots of people don't get that on here. But, in my opinion, if a T starts something, then just takes it away, that's not very helpful for my trust. If I said or did something, I wish she'd have told me, or if, like above, it's an act to help me soothe myself better, tell me so, instead of leaving me there hanging wondering what I did.... I was crying and upset about our discussion today, she had to ask me twice to stand up so she could give me a hug. I didn't want a hug, I just wanted to walk out the door. I wasn't upset over this, per se, but it was in the back of my mind. I know I'll have to bring it up to her, but right now, I would prefer if I don't get a text or Email from her between sessions. I see her again on Monday. It can wait. I'm going away for the weekend anyway, and she knows it.