this seems like a real challenge. i think the ultimate decision to make is whether you are up for the challenge of being responsible for a child for the next 19 years. (worry about how you are going to get there later) you could try a pro/con list. on the con side is med issues, mental health issues, coping issues to start. put down all the challenges of raising a kid. all of them. and dont assume you are going to have an angel. think of everything you are going to have to put up with. are you good at applying consequences, discipline? are you assertive? do you have the power to follow thru? the lack of sleep, worrying, home work, up all night with a sick kid, school functions, financial issues, defiance, fighting over chores, messy rooms, boys/girls, crying all the time....................then put down all the good things you want a child for. then sit on it for a week or so and go over it again and make your decision. if it is a strong yes, then the 9 months of hell of being off your meds is going to be worth it. the nine months of hell should be on the con side. cause not only will your meds not be what youre used to, you will have all those hormones raging through your body and then at risk for post partem depression. i hope this isnt too negative of a post, i am just trying to cover all the facts. i had a friend in your place who almost committed suicide because she went off her meds to get pregnant. she didnt think very carefully about what she was doing. she was just trying to please her boyfriend. so really think it thru. which it sounds like you are trying to do. take care.