You are so right on this one. I love my daughter but I think that with my mental illnesses maybe I'm an inadequate mother, because I can barely handle my full-time responsibilities (cleaning the house, two pets, a full-time very stressful deadline-based job). Add a pregnancy , a premature baby for no explained reason, though I suspect stress), and extreme post-pardon depression (during which I was hospitalized due to an allergic reaction to medicine intended to treat my severe cystic acne). It was the darkest point of my life. Anyway, all of this is to say that you are correctly assuming how trying this life choice can be.