Nice to know others understand what this feels like. Regarding the approval thing, my T is the one who is helping me put it all into perspective. I could not be doing this without his help. I was too entrenched in the pathology. I see it now in a clear, healthy light. The really scary part is, I thought my family was normal. It never felt "good", but it's all I knew. When I share with my therapist, sometimes he just closes his eyes and shakes his head ever so slightly.