I also hate to cry. When tears start to come I just want to run far away from any people. Actually, I've noticed I cant cry in front of men, I have less of an issue with women, but I don't feel like women can help me with my issues so it's not comforting to cry around them either... odd. My T has both tried to console me and to leave me be, and either way I will try to shut off the tears as soon as I can. I guess you can say therapists are unpredictable, like anyone else. If I got the sense my therapist would come and hug me I might actually cry more because it's comforting to be close to him.

Anyways, I think if you can cry you should cry. It's supposed to be cathartic and will probably be good down the line. But I do get it.