Hi all, I am new to this and new to knowing I have Multiple personality disorder. I have been struggling for 17 years with mental health problems properly but looking back now, I have been suffering for another 5 years roughly on top of that. 29 now so thats most of my life. I have been unable to keep many friends. At the moment I have 1 friend that has been with me for around 14 years but I feel she is as crazy as me sometimes so it helps. And she has been through hell in her life like myself so I can actually listen to her and confide in her to an extent. However with other people, I feel they dont understand the difficulties I have been through and the personalities I have developed to survive these events. Friends in past lable me as crazy or a drama queen and always trying to tell me how I should be feeling and that I am silly or over react and so I find it hard to open up to them and tell them why I am the way I am because they have already made their judgement and once they make their judgement I cannot trust them enough to open up. I have an older self, a young self, from before my childhood event, an angry protective side that goes out all guns blazing and will do anything to survive, a miserable depressed doubtful side, an over happy and enthusiastic crafty side and then me, the one who owns up to it all, I might be able to break my personalities down more but these are the ones that I notice and possibly a few walk hand in hand with others and may be seperate other times, I am just not sure. I am still waiting for therapy after my recent diagnosis. I am very forgetful which gets frustrating for the boyfriend. He has to deal with these other sides of me acting out even when he has done nothing and I cannot always stay in control of which side of me is going to come out. my doubtful side and my protective side are the most dominant around him and I dont want them to be. I want to enjoy my relationship but these keep getting in the way. I find it so hard to make friends because of everything and am hoping I can find people here who will understand and perhaps accept me as a member of the gang in this community. I just want to find somewhere where I can talk to people freely and without judgement for my crazy thoughts and actions in life.