I'm surprised he's seeing you again after ignoring your suicide attempts and attempts to contact him when you were in hospital. I hope he is able to provide you some peace or closure so you can move on.

I'm glad his wife could help calm you down. I wonder if he hopes to stop the urge you have to go to his house and talk with his family. I certainly hope he can invoke some more calm.

My guess is that he didn't know how to handle seeing you and I hope he works out a plan going forward.