I wasn't trying to put in on them. This person always acts as if they want to help so I told them how to help. I was mostly upset because of my fear of them showing others and humiliating me. They do things like put me on speakerphone with others around without telling me. That's when I got scared and tried to make a deal. It's not the messages, it's what they would do with them that scare me. It's hard to stop when it's already screwed up anyway. So I wanted a clean start.

I was mostly asking how others would feel if someone decided to print their crazy, desperate messages to see if I'm nuts for feeling terrified. I have no idea what they'll do with them...