For a couple weeks I ate, much of it junk food. Part of that time I was sick and had a sore throat, so I had mostly ice cream. Lots of calories during this time. I had no energy to work out at the gym. I had a fever, so I find it almost impossible to enjoy the sauna.
Now I am feeling better but still some residual, I have more energy again, hormones changed and 10 pounds more. My weight got just to where it should be--130. I could still see my ribs, but they were much more covered and lessened.
I had decided mid to late last week that I would lose the weight I gained after the weekend; timing would be better and easier then. I had set a goal to get my weight back down to 120 within 2 weeks.
I kept my own promise. I watched my eating all day. I finally went back to the gym yesterday. Starting out Monday morning my weight was 129.5 lbs. (I had reached 130 officially, though, prior to yesterday.) Last night it was 127. This morning it was 127 prior to workout and sauna, and 125 after.
I am back on various OTC pills that I used before to drop weight quickly, at least 2 lbs. a day or maybe more. In just 24 hours between Monday morning and the end of Tuesday morning--today--I lost about 5 pounds. I won't know how much I weigh next till tomorrow morning. But I know it will be lesser still.
I feel proud of myself, like I am doing a good thing taking all these pills and living off give or take 500 calories per day. I know its not exactly considered healthy. But I feel happy doing it. I haven't decided whether to see if my T notices and sees a change in my weight or to give him an early hint. I saw a card at the Hallmark store picturing a woman standing on a scale saying, "I've got to get lighter underwear." It's really funny--it's a Shoebox brand. If I got that, I'd write a note maybe something like, "They say a picture is worth a thousand words", and then include a little thank you note since he probably doesn't hear it often enough that he is appreciated. Maybe that's kind of weird to do both together, I don't know. I'm really enjoying this though, losing the weight like this. Hope I don't learn to enjoy it too much. There is still something in the back of my mind telling me to keep going after 120. I don't know. There are too many ways for people to deal with stress. Why can't we all react one way and not have to worry about stuff like this? This is just a stress reaction. I know, something I can control. Crazy.
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My life and being formerly homeless
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