More cleaning today-how long can this last?? Everything looks nice though. Took my ambien last night & had a weird dream where I was standing in front a bunch of my cousins & they couldn't here what I was saying so I said it louder & woke my self up talking loud-never had that before. I finally got brave enough to call my Mom to see if they are really going to visit us in May-would be the first time in 8 years (we visit them, they are in good health & money is not a problem) but no not gonna happen-I didn't think it would & it freaks me out anyway but it does add to my burden of wow these people just do not care that much about me-same goes for my daughter. Guess I will never understand them but at least I don't have to worry about pleasing them (which is utterly impossible) or having them hate where we live & our lifestyle (both of which are awesome but they just don't get us) sigh-when you're an only child & this is the way it has always been you do get used to it but still...sucks-I don't like that they treat my daughter exactly the same & she is such an awesome amazing young woman & they're missing it-will give me something else #&#!@%* up about my family to tell my tdoc next week. Big hugs to everyone here-sometimes we have to be each other's family