You recall me my father. I also saw the machine recording my father's heart beat dropped gradually to zero then rang. Then medical personnel asked us if we wanted to apply electric shock on him. They said the electric shock would inflict pain on him and finally he would still pass. If not, we needed to sign. Bombarder (Father's wife) said she agreed to give up solving his live by giving up electric shock and she asked me to sign. I refused to sign because I wanted Father to be back so I didn't sign but cry. Then the doctor announced Father was dead and asked us to go out because they needed to remove all pipes from his body. When we entered again, I saw Father's lip lost the usual fresh red color; this triggered my tear again.

Though this event has passed many years, I still can't believe Father has passed. Today I dreamt Father was painful and was accompanied by Bombarder, who refused to serve his need. Bombarder is such a miser who always takes saving money as the most important no matter what. I really hate her harsh behavior of taking money as paramount over all else. Even Father sufferred there, she still kept saving money as her first consideration in mind.

Since there was no Father, I don't know any meaning of going home. In the past when I went home, my main purpose was to see Father. Now I prefer to stay outside pretending Father still alive because I can't be used to be in such a home without Father. Such a home without Father is like ghosts' inhabitance without any positive animation; if you want to ask if there is any animation there, there's indeed negative animation, which is the bombs given off by Bombarder, who is absolutely generous in giving you bombs but absolutley stingy in giving you anything costing her money. The toilet got broken long time ago, Bombarder didn't fix but just bombards you if you use it and make it stink. The warm bath facility was broken long time ago, Bombarder didn't fix it and if you wash your head in the kitchen (only kitchen has a stove to cook water if you want to use warm water to wash your head) making the ground wet, Bombarder bombards you.