(((SP))) I haven't been online in several days and I just want to check and see how you were doing. Hoping today is going a little better than yesterday. If everyday is just a little better than the day before, then after a week or two weeks or a month, we should find ourselves in a much better place.
I'm with you on the diet thing and need to lose pretty much the same weight wise (a little more than you actually).
While crying like a fool in T's office the other day, she "coached" me through some breathing to get me to calm down. I'm wondering if something like that would help you?
Deep slow breaths and concentrate on listening to your breathing in and out. Feel your limbs one by one go limp and relax. Maybe you know all this already. Just a thought.
Take care of yourself.