(((Esther)))
I think the ambivalence about our mothers is one of the hardest places to be. We see both side of the coin. Wouldn't it be easier if we were either ignorant or totally angry without seeing the causes of their failures?
I think that we can still be angry without letting go of the knowledge that they are human and that we cannot change them. It's just a really hard balancing act. Unfortunately, I don't think it changes over time, either. I just think maybe we will get used to it.