I've started to cut agin. I've actually tried several times in the last 4 months, but this is the first time i can honestly admit that I did it again. umm so much is going on in my life. I used to post more but i am back in grad school . I know no one here. Cant afford therapy.. and yes i know I can get the free stuff at school but i am tooooo freaked about that kinda stuff with the possiblity of someone i meet knowing. NOt to mention the fact that they use us as guinea pigs for the psych grad students (no offense to the psych grad student) I miss my old counselor. I call her and it takes literally a week for her to return the call and she never has much time. I just feel so overwhelmed with the idea that I may be alone. and that I may be slipping.
Alone and slipping.
I feel almost sick when im at home. which is bad because i have so much homework. Its hard to concentrate when your aching, so I started cutting. I need immediate relief so i can get back to studying. Sounds crazy im sure.. It works... but it doesnt work
Because im still slipping deeper.

Thanks for listening to me, guys! I'm popping a Lexapro so hopfully happier tomorrow
Always smilin
Goodnight