Hi stillstruggling and welcome to PC.

I'm sure it must be difficult for you right now. I'm sorry you are having these difficult times.

About all I can suggest to you at the moment is to keep posting here and telling us what's going on. We are a very supportive community here and I'm sure many can understand exactly what you are going through.

How long have you been on your meds? If it's less than about a month, then you may not start feeling better for another couple of weeks. It can take 4 - 6 weeks before they really kick in. (antidepressants that is)

Again, welcome to PC. I can offer you a hug and a shoulder to lean on when you need it.

Take care,
J