(((((((((sister))))))))))

Trudging onward can be so difficult sometimes. And sometimes we get stuck at a certain point for awhile and wonder what's the use? I guess it's because there is some lesson there that we have to learn and until we learn it, we can't move forward again.

I understand what you are saying about your siblings thinking your mom was a saint, and yet you feel so differently towards her. It took me a long time to understand things like that in my family too. What I finally learned was that each of us has a completely different relationship with a parent. What one sibling goes through is totally different than another. We are different people, we see things differently. Try not to think of it as you against them when it comes to your mom. It's just different, that's all, and each of you has a right to feel and think whatever it is you do. Don't get me wrong, I do understand how maddening it can be.

I hope you will get to a point of feeling better soon. Keep trudging along, sooner or later you have to hit even ground

Hugsssssss
Jean