No judgement here. Trust me. Can relate. Feel free to speak what you need to say here.

I can relate - unable to keep friends...even those that try hard to be my friend. In recent years I've cancel dinner with a friend and never called him back... Years ago he considered me his kinda therapist, and was so grateful I was there for him,.... yet I couldn't even call him back.... I couldn't explain why I had to cancel except that I was "messed up"

But it's hard to have people in my life (even thought I want them) and hard to remember things. Fewer people in my life...less I have to remember, or think about.

I don't want to explain, be asked questions about my past, and surely not about my family.