I'm...not doing great. I spent yet another day/night in the hospital again yesterday. My labs came back the worst they ever have and I had an abnormal EKG, and I just kind of take it in stride. It doesn't seem real to me that I could actually die because of any of these complications.
Yes, I'm purging because I don't want to gain weight. And no, I have no idea why that's so important to me, I wish it wasn't.
I really don't know what to do with myself anymore..